Sunday, May 24, 2009

Deep Emotional Connection

four questions that do help you to evaluate whether you have a deeper emotional connection
The first is — Do I respect and admire this person?

Now this does not mean — Am I impressed with the person? Being impressed means, I’m impressed with her car, I’m impressed with her job, I’m impressed with the way they look. Being impressed is not respect, and please don’t confuse the two. So you must ask this question — Do I respect and do I admire this person? And then ask yourself specifically, what specifically do I respect and admire about this person. Respect and admiration are the fundamental emotional connection that we have with another person.

The second question you must ask is — Do I trust this person? That again will put you in touch with a deeper emotion, a deeper feeling. Do I trust this person? Another way to ask this is — Can I rely on them? Do I feel I can rely on them? Do I trust their judgment? Do I trust their word? Can I believe what they say?

The third question to ask is — Do I feel safe? Do I feel emotionally safe with this person? That means, can I be vulnerable? Can I be myself? Can I be open? Can I express myself? We’ll talk about this more in point seven.

Do I feel calm and at peace with this person? That will also help you to get down to evaluating the deeper level of the emotional connection. Do I feel calm and peace? Now I think we all have a good friend, a good friend that when we’re with that person they do give us a sense of calm and peacefulness.

Friday, February 08, 2008


"I think love is overrated
I think it's necessary but it's not sufficient"

- Philip McGraw

Friday, February 01, 2008

This is confusing

They sing it well and I love listening to it but to read these words strung together the way they are I have no clue. When I restructure it the way I want to then it makes sense to me but otherwise
Maybe they just wrote and wrote and decided "Ok, sounds good and fluffy, let's go for it!"
Take a listen
Looking Through Patient Eyes

Whatever it is I do, I try to think about you.
I have a love for you that nothing hides.
Whatever it is I do, Im always thinking of you.
I hope you look at me through patient eyes.
Ive become amused. Ive become blind.
Ive become what I know not breathes.
You seem illiterate to all my emotions.
I stand corrected, how well you read.
You speak the truth, you speak the me.
You fell the love I have yet to find.
I know its there, I know its there.
But I let the sandcastles kill my mind.
Pathetic me, I long to be you.
They think Im close but I stand so far.
The turbulent one sheds a turbulent tear.
Im mr. love only cause they starve.
Oil and water, lust and sympathy.
Ill life and death my way through the sun.
Where originates all the pain that leaves.
My memory a traumatic sponge and sings to you.

Well define my love and attitude.
Open up your mind and it will sing to you.
You can always tell.
But I know remorse so well.
I left reality early due to the lack of love... reason.

Whatever I do, I try to think about you.
I seek the sympathy and I cant lie.
Whatever it is I do, Im always thinking of you.
I hope you look at me through patient eyes.

The channel, a professional liar.
How I long to contradict those vibes.
Joni help me, I think Im falling.
Its not the love and I quest the why.

--pete rock mix only--
I have yet to conquer my behavior
In my reaction to the helpless vail.
The great addiction to possess what isnt.
Floating ships that refuse to sail.
As mercys love to the featherless pigeon.
Searchin through life through the blurriest vission.
As mercys love to the heartless hand.
Its candid rights as if the wrong understand.
--end pete rock--

I dont know, if Im right, Im right.
But if Im wrong then show me Im wrong.
The fear of pity is always awake.
But infinite sympathy completely gone.
Its the windows, the doors, the passageway to the truth.
Oh my god, it echoes the mind.
In total recall as wild as the deuce.
Its so deceiving is the clouded heart.
So superficial is the open wound.
I caress the infinite light.
That even at night.
Overshadows the moon and sings to you.

Well, define my love, that lives with you.
Even when I die, it will still sing to you.
You can always tell if remorse has done you well...
The misconstrued my answers due to the lack of love... reason.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Good Morning Heartache

Billie Holiday
Good Morning Heartache

Watch and listen

Good morning heartache
You old gloomy sight
Good morning heartache
Thought we said goodbye last night
I turned and tossed until it seems you heve gone
But here you are with the dawn
Wish I forget you, but youre here to stay
It seems I met you
When my love went away
Now everyday I stop Im saying to you
Good morning heartache whats new

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Stop haunting me now
Cant shake you nohow
Just leave me alone
Ive got those monday blues
Straight to sunday blues
Good morning heartache
Here we go again
Good morning heartache
Youre the one
Who knows me well
Might as well get use to you hanging around
Good morning heartache
Sit down

Friday, December 28, 2007

Mouths and minds

Every time we open our mouths, people look into our minds...

Monday, December 10, 2007


By Sia Furler as Sia

We've been to the top, we've been to the bottom
We've known everything and forgotten, yeah

You've kicked me around, you've wrapped me in cotton
You've carried our load, and you've shot 'em

Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there

We've argued by the baggage claim
We've accepted and we've laid blame
We've drank Sangthip in monsoonal rain
We've felt separate and felt the same

Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there

We've shared joy and we've shared pain
We've shared guilt and we've shared shame
We've bought into the stupid games
We've freed each other and we laid claim

Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there
Oh yes the butterflies are still there


Somersault Lyrics
Artist(Band):Zero 7

You're the prince to my ballerina
You feed other people's parking meters
You encourage the eating of ice cream
You would somersault in sand with me

You talk to loners, you ask how's your week
You give love to all and give love to me
You're obsessed with hiding the sticks and stones
When I fear the unknown
You feel like home, you feel like home

You put my feet back on the ground
Did you know you brought me around
You were sweet, and you were sound
You saved me

You're the warmth in my summer breeze
You're the ivory to my ebony keys
You would share your last jelly bean
You would somersault in sand with me
Guess who
You put my feet back on the ground
Did you know you brought me around
You were sweet and you were sound
You saved me

You put my feet back on the ground
Did you know you brought me around
You were sweet and you were sound
See I had shrunk yet still you wore me around
And 'round and 'round

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Anais Nin

Love never dies a natural death.

It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source.

It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.

It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

-Anais Nin

Friday, December 07, 2007

I like

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant."

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."

"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something."

"I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence."

"You are not judged on the height you have risen but on the depth from which you have climbed."

"The soul that is within me no man can degrade."

"Nobody ever understands what a pioneer is doing."

"It is very easy to break down something. Throw a stone through a window; that is easy. Try fixing it, and that takes longer."

"Do your little bit of good where you are; it is those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world."

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get--only with what you are expecting to give--which is everything."

"Thinking is the hardest work there is, which is the probable reason so few engage in it."

"Judge a man by his questions rather than by his answers."

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Emotional Safety

Emotional safety is something you need to strive for in yourself and look for in another person. Specifically, individuals who love themselves and work at becoming whole have reached a point where emotional safety is a natural part of who they are. It’s a two-way street of openness, vulnerability and acceptance reflected in a combination of words, body language and attitudes.

Meeting the criteria for being in an emotionally safe relationship can be defined by the following qualities in both partners:

• Respecting and setting limits and boundaries

• Telling the truth consistently and compassionately

• Not becoming enmeshed or co-dependent

• Not using anything you reveal - information, fears or vulnerabilities -against you

• Feeling you can be open and not having to protect yourself

• Not being judgmental and blaming

• Sharing fears, insecurities, flaws and weaknesses

The key to emotional safety is the ability to connect with another through the heart. This connection presupposes that each individual has done some inner work and is able to accept themselves and others without judgment. It is this work that is vital to the individual and totally supports the relationship.

In truth, we can’t be emotionally safe all the time, even with the most loving partner. There will be breakdowns in any relationship. People who love each other may hurt each other unintentionally. As much as we may love someone, we can never anticipate another person’s needs. No one can read your mind, no matter how intimate and loving they are. We need to communicate honestly when someone has hurt us. Then we need to forgive ourselves and another and learn from the experience and move on.

The key to emotional safety is authenticity. Honest and authentic communication is critical to developing and maintaining healthy relationships. You must be open to hear feedback, both positive and negative, acknowledging that another’s perspective might be different from yours. This openness is the path towards becoming more emotionally safe and finding others who are emotionally safe for you. We can’t stress this enough.

BE AUTHENTIC in all your relationships and communications with other people. DON’T JUDGE OTHERS. BE OPEN TO FEEDBACK. COMMUNICATE. The ability to say no connects you with your own authentic power so you only do things that support you. Be honest and open and connect to others through your heart. And finally, be committed to only choosing relationships that are emotionally safe.

Monday, December 03, 2007


By Charlie Hall

Beautiful are the words spoken to me
Beautiful is the one who speaking

Come in close, come in close and speak
Come in close, come closer to me

Beautiful are the words spoken to me
Beautiful is the one who speaking

The power of your words are filled with grace and mercy
Let them fall on my ears and break my stony heart

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Coffee Shop Lyrics

Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop
Landon Pigg

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
yes theres a chance thatI've fallen quite hard over you.
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
i love so much
all of the while i never knew
i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
i love so much
all of the while i never knew

i think that possibly, maybe im falling for you
yes theres a chance that ive fallen quite hard over you.
ive seen the waters that make your eyes shine
now im shining too

because oh because
ive fallen quite hard over
over you

if i didnt know you, id rather not know
if i couldnt have you, i'd rather be alone

i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
i love so much
all of the while i never knew
i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
i love so much
all of the while, i never knew

all of the while , all of the while

Thursday, November 29, 2007


“To love at all is to be vulnerable.
Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken.
If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal.
Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.
But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change.
It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
-C.S. Lewis

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Bleeding Hearts

From the movie Love Actually...

The Trouble with Love Is

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

(The trouble with) The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

(The trouble with love is) The trouble with love, yeah
(It can tear you up inside) It can tear you up inside
(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

(The trouble with love is)
It's in your heart
It's in your soul (doesn't care how fast you fall)
You won't get no control
(and you can't refuse the call)
See, you got no say at all

(The trouble with love is) Oh, yeah
(It can tear you up inside)
(Make your heart believe a lie)

Saturday, November 10, 2007


Have more than though showest;
speak less than thou knowest;
lend less than thou owest"

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Heart Sings

And when the song is over
We've all said Amen

Your heart just keeps on singing
And the song will never end
And if somebody asks you
was it just a show
Lift your hand and a be a witness
And tell the whole world no

Just as she is

Mark Darcy tells Bridget he likes her just as she is
Her friends react in disbelief
"Not Thinner?"
"Not Cleverer?"
"Not with bigger boobs?"

No, just as she is...
Lovely :)

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Quote I liked

Live in the Fast Lane....die on the Shoulder.
Read'll get it

Monday, October 29, 2007


True Friendship - Recognition
How can we find true friendship in this often phony, temporary world? Friendship involves recognition or familiarity with another's personality. Friends often share likes and dislikes, interests, pursuits, and passion.

How can we recognize potential friendship? Signs include a mutual desire for companionship and perhaps a common bond of some kind. Beyond that, genuine friendship involves a shared sense of caring and concern, a desire to see one another grow and develop, and a hope for each other to succeed in all aspects of life. True friendship involves action: doing something for someone else while expecting nothing in return; sharing thoughts and feelings without fear of judgment or negative criticism.

True Friendship - Relationship, Trust, Accountability
True friendship involves relationship. Those mutual attributes we mentioned above become the foundation in which recognition transpires into relationship. Many people say, "Oh, he's a good friend of mine," yet they never take time to spend time with that "good friend." Friendship takes time: time to get to know each other, time to build shared memories, time to invest in each other's growth.

Trust is essential to true friendship. We all need someone with whom we can share our lives, thoughts, feelings, and frustrations. We need to be able to share our deepest secrets with someone, without worrying that those secrets will end up on the Internet the next day! Failing to be trustworthy with those intimate secrets can destroy a friendship in a hurry. Faithfulness and loyalty are key to true friendship. Without them, we often feel betrayed, left out, and lonely. In true friendship, there is no backbiting, no negative thoughts, no turning away.

True friendship requires certain accountability factors. Real friends encourage one another and forgive one another where there has been an offense. Genuine friendship supports during times of struggle. Friends are dependable. In true friendship, unconditional love develops. We love our friends no matter what and we always want the best for our friends.

True Friendship - Examples of Real Friendship
True friendship stories are found throughout the Bible. In Genesis 18:17-33, we read about God sharing His intentions with Abraham. Abraham responds by telling God his thoughts and feelings about the situation. God and Abraham are able to do this because they trust and respect each other.

First Samuel 20 focuses on the friendship of David and Jonathan. These two men truly cared for each other and had great trust and confidence in one another. David was running for his life from Jonathan's father, Saul. Jonathan recognized that David was innocent. Because of the true friendship they shared, David survived Saul's assassination attempts and went on to become one of Israel's greatest kings.

Real and true friendship involves freedom of choice, accountability, truth, and forgiveness. Peter and Jesus give us this example: Peter, afraid for his life after Jesus is led away from the Garden of Gethsemane, denies knowing Jesus (John 18). As He is led away by His accusers, Jesus casts a look toward Peter that says, "I knew you would deny Me, and I forgive you" (John 21).

Real friendship looks at the heart, not just the "packaging." Genuine friendship loves for love's sake, not just for what it can get in return. True friendship is both challenging and exciting. It risks, it overlooks faults, and it loves unconditionally, but it also involves being truthful, even though it may hurt. Genuine friendship, also called "agape" love, comes from the Lord. The Lord Jesus calls us His friends and He laid down His life for us (John 15).

Relationships in real life involve different levels of friendships, and that's okay. But humans are designed by God for lasting relationships. Often our isolationist society offers only vague, empty relationships. God wants us to have friends here on earth. Most of all, He wants us to be friends with Him!

God's Word tells us that a friend sticks closer than a brother, and that in order for one to be a friend, one must show themselves friendly (Proverbs 18:24). The question is: what type of friend do you desire to be?

Proverbs 18:19 in the New Living Translation says: "It's harder to make amends with an offended friend than to capture a fortified city. Arguments separate friends like a gate locked with iron bars." When we've offended a true friend - whether by breaking a trust or by speaking the truth with love - we risk losing that friendship. We must be careful not to break the trust. But when not speaking the truth will cause greater hurt in our friend's life, we must be willing to sacrifice our needs for those of our friend. That is true friendship.

If we sometimes offend a friend without meaning to, God's Word offers a solution. It's called forgiveness. There is no greater example than the love of God for us. It so great that He gave His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, in order that our friendship with God might be restored. He did that in spite of the fact that we have offended Him deeply. We have disobeyed His commands, turned our backs on Him, and followed our own path. So the question remains: What type of friend do you want to be? True Christian friendship forgives.

Do you need a friend? God wants to be your true friend. Are you longing for companionship? God is always with you (Hebrews 13:5). Who do you know who needs a true friend today? God wants you to befriend others. He calls us to be His hands and feet in a world starving for true friendship.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Reason and Season

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Redwine Versus Eiswine

I don't feel so good today. It will pass soon...
Some people need my help and I don't know what to say..I hope it is the right thing...whatever it is..

Seems like everybody close is in the doldrums this week so far. What is happening?
Last week I think maybe everyone was pretending to be fine...
At least that is what one person admitted to they can't deal.
It is going to be a long week of meeting and talking and reassuring and being straight up, that is for sure.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

The Invitation

The Invitation

It doesn't interest me what u do for a living. I want to know what u ache for, and if u dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old u are. I want to know if u will risk looking a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if u have touched the center of your own sorrow, if u have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if u can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if u can be with joy, mine or your own, if u can dance with wildness and let the ecstacy fill u to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story u are telling me is true. I want to know if u can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if u can bare the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul, if u can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.

I want to know if u can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if u can source your own life from it's presence. I want to know if u can live with failure, yours or mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "YES!"

It doesn't interest me to know where u live or how much money u have. I want to know if u can get up after the night of grief and dispair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who u know or how u came to be here. I want to know if u will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where, or what, or with whom u have studied. I want to know what sustains u, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if u can be alone with yourself and if u truly like the company u keep in the empty moments.

~Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Tom Scavo versus Rick Colletti

I know its only a tv show but let's imagine that it's not.

"Desperate Housewives brought in a new character Rick Colettei played by Jason Gedrick

He plays Scavo pizzeria's new employee who is interested in Lynnette Scavo.

Lynette has always had to 'carry' her husband Tom emotionally. If he succeeded it was always because Lynette did a lot of work to make sure that that happened.
While Tom has his good qualities and cares for Lynette, it seems as if Lynet
te is always paying for his mistakes.

Rick is new (lets forget that new means you don't know the guy very well)
Rick seems strong emotionally (not really because he's a recovering addict-but lets jus
t forget that for now)
Rick is always there for Lynette

Emotionally, Rick is the support for Lynnette.
Lynette can talk to him openly

Rick actually HELPS Lynnette
He inspired Lynette to wear her hair down, and THAT is one of the most important things to even happen to Lynette.
She let her hair down.
For once ..she was able to relax.

I'd take a Rick over a Tom anyday....

I refuse to look at this situation in a more realistic light. For now it's about drama free Male-female relationships

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Interesting...I wonder if everyone knows this

I got this from a friend, and wondered if guys knew this...How easy life is but then....

Any relationship has it's troubles.
Sometimes, they are pretty manageable. Sometimes they are major, and painful.
The process is usually similar... a man and woman meet... chemistry... fall in love...
And when a woman gives her heart, and really, really feels love for a man, it's really something to see. The love of a woman can be so powerful, and beautiful. The kind of love where she counts down the minutes until he gets home. The kind of love where she would bring home a huge Christmas tree and put it up, even while 6 months pregnant, just so she could surprise him. The kind of love where she will drive an hour out of her way, just to see him for five minutes, and kiss him.

It's so powerful.
But as we all know, often times, this passion begins to change, or fade. It is rarely because of the passage of time, as most women don't just enjoy the novelty of fresh love at first, but also the long-lasting love many dream of, a man they can count on, a man they are safe with. But often, it fades because of damage.
Hurtful words. Hurtful actions. Things that cause mistrust or suspicion. And especially, things that cause her to lose respect and admiration for him. This is the toughest blow, because women are so resilient to pain, and willing to forgive, out of that deep love they have devoted to the man. They will even give a man the benefit of the doubt when it comes to mistrust, hoping against hope that his heart still belongs to her, and that he is faithful when he insists that he is. But respect... men's deepest need is often to be admired and respected... and when he does things, and says things, that trigger disgust, or hurts her and others with carelessness...
She cannot help but feel that disgust and shame against him.
At first, she may shrug it off, knowing her love must withstand, and that he's not perfect. Then she often tries to help him, encourage him, show him where he is causing the problem. Sadly, the man either just does not get it, or she can't seem to explain it correctly, or worse- she gets ripped for it. And the admiration breaks down further..
And a woman may often begin treating him worse, from her disdain and disgust for what she has now seen. She thought, and hoped, he was a good man, but now her love shrinks away, like a hand pulling back from a hissing snake... Now, she still 'loves' him.. but its like a dying campfire, soon to go out, and instead of feeding the flames and keeping it hot, he pours mud upon it with each new offense...
Add to this, that he responds badly to the problem, when she presents it. He either denies it, which makes him a liar since she knows she is correct, and this lying makes it worse... Or he says he is sorry, and vows to change and get better, but ultimately, his attempts are feeble, and he doesn't improve, further killing the fire that once was... and also making him a liar... Or, he responds in hostility to the 'attack' she has brought, even though she really didn't mean to do that, it was more like a cry for help, begging him to stop trampling their fire, and breaking her heart, crushing her spirit... and now she can only withdraw and witness the collapse of her own heart, and even, her dreams...
And then it happens.
The feeling is lost. Usually, it comes like a revelation. Either from an event, or from just waking up one day and realizing-
The feeling is GONE.
the love is gone, it's gone... lost...
No longer does she have any fight to save it. No longer does she feel anything positive for him. As if she fell into a sleep, and a dream when she loved him... the dream became a nightmare, and in that moment, she wakes up. She rubs the 'sleep' from her eyes, And the dream is over. Reality is upon her, and she begins to move.
Once she gets to this place, the dream is never recaptured. Not with him. She remembers the dream. It was so vivid. It was so intense. It became so painful. She remembers his name. But she can never fall asleep again, and fall into his arms again to feel that love, and give him what she once gave.
It may take her a while, to set herself right. These aren't things that are walked away from like the flip of a switch. But once this moment comes, once the flame is snuffed out, it's only a matter of time, and nothing can stop it. She will never feel it again, for him. She may stick around a while, see if she can rekindle the spark. See if it's really gone. And often, the man confirms it, doing more of the very same things, speaking the same ugly things that got him there...
Men often think they can do as they will. They see that the woman loves him. They see her deep forgiveness and desire for him. They see how she offers herself, and takes whatever bit of him she can get. Then they abuse it. They push it too far. They don't feed her fire, or give her enough. They neglect her. They trample her at will, knowing she will always love him, knowing her love is deep and important... yet not realizing, it can indeed be broken, it can be killed, and not realizing how very close they might be to this moment... And most of all, not realizing that if this moment occurs... he will never, never again, recapture her heart. A dream can't be recaptured...
Once she is finally... sadly awake.

Friday, June 22, 2007

I love these lyrics from Diary of a Mad Black woman but I like Chandra Corelli's version better than Natalie Cole's. Pure Jazz

Natalie Cole lyrics,
I Wanna Love Again lyrics

Ah baby
How do I start? Where do I begin?
I've been hurt so much. I just need a friend
Could it be you? Will you break through these walls?
Are you willing to help them fall?

I want to love again, but I'm afraid to
I want to trust again
But my heart says not to
Your every smile, your gentle touch makes weak
I want you so much
I want love again and this time with you

I didn't know that this would be so hard for me
Being this close to you is driving me crazy
My mind says no oh but my body says yes
You make one move and I'll do the rest

I want to love again, but I'm afraid to
I want to trust again
But my heart says not to
Your every smile, your gentle touch makes weak
I want you so much
I want to love again and this time with you

Oh it's been so long since I've seen your face
And I'm just trying to be strong, oh but I think about you everyday
And it makes me weak when I see your face
I guess it means I'm in a different space
Cause I wanna love again and this time with you

I want to love again but I'm afraid to
I want to trust again
But my heart says not to
Your every smile, your gentle, gentle touch makes me weak
I want you so much
I want to love again, please let me love again, I want to love again
And this time with you
I just wanna love again with you